So I’ve been working on my essay and there was a part of it that I really liked bcuz it was an important moment, but it took up way too many words. I had a good time writing it though, and like I said, it was an important moment in my SM story and I didn’t just want what I wrote to disappear, so I thought I would share it here! The moment I began speaking out loud in middle:
I was always worried about what would happen if I was still whispering when I got to high school. I wanted to speak out loud in class again so badly, but I didn’t know how to make it happen. In seventh grade our teacher made everyone participate in the class spelling bee, and I remember thinking that this was my chance to make it happen. All I had to do was spell my word out loud instead of in a whisper and ignore all thoughts of how people might react. I was filled with anxiety, but my determination was blocking it out. When the teacher gave me my word, I took a deep breath and spelled it out loud. The sound that came out of my mouth might not have seemed any different to everyone else, but it felt completely different to me. It felt like victory. I ended up winning and going on to the school spelling bee, where I had to speak in a microphone. Before it would have seemed impossible, but now it just seemed like something new for me to conquer.
Anyone else have a story to tell? Send me a message and I’ll post it! Or if you want it to be private just let me know and I won’t post it.